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I’m honestly just shaking at this point. Even typing this is a struggle. I feel like the one person who means the world to me is slipping away. I dont know what to do anymore. I try so hard to pretend it’s not bothering me anymore I put on a fake smile and try and be a good person and friend to everyone I know especially because they have their own troubles that I should help them with. I literally have no idea what to do. I have no one to turn to about this because my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her, in fact most of my friends don’t even think I talk to her to anymore. I miss her in a way I didn’t think was possible. I miss waking up to her texts, and going to sleep with us saying good night to each other. I don’t care if we end up together or we’re just friends I just want her in my life. She means the world to me and watching her slip away and not knowing if it was because of me is honestly killing me. I can’t sleep anymore, and when I do I have nightmares. Even when I stand up I have chest pains and there’s no one to turn to at this point. I think about her 24/7, she’s always on my mind and its terrible. It’s driving me crazy and I don’t know how much more I can take of this.